THE DAY GOD CALLED ME DEEPER II – PART 2
Getting home that day, I did not know what I was in for. After I had danced in the afternoon, and cried at midnight the days began to role in one after the other. There was a weekend, a public holiday (Democracy day) and then work resumed in full but there was nowhere for me to go to. May I announce to you that I lived in a flat where my 3 flat mates were bankers too and 2 of them worked in the same organization from which I had just been sacked – yeah, that sucks, right?It meant that they woke up to go to work as usual but my own usual was over. I had to clean up the house after they were gone. If there was anything that needed to be taken care of in the house, I naturally did it because I was the available one. It meant that they were confused on how to relate with me. They had known me to be private and conservative, they had seen me as someone who liked control and to be in charge, so they did not know the right questions to ask me as per, way forward. They were quick to offer help in any and every way though. They offered me free rides, laundry runs, resigned a laptop to me because mine was faulty and for all these and many more, I would be forever grateful to Taiye, Kenny and Nneka. Sometimes I felt so horrible and hopeless having to see them wake up and go to work and sometimes I just locked my door because I didn’t want them to come say the good mornings and goodbyes anymore.
I did not tell you that I had investments in Treasury Bills in my Bank and same organization I worked for. I had also received upfront salary payment as staff of the same organization. When I was sacked, not only did they deprive us of all benefits and entitlements, they actually debited our accounts to the tune of the upfront amount which we earlier had received. My Credit card outstanding balance was also crashed into that account and it ran into several hundreds of thousands in debit (negative).
I was still looking at the debit balance and I was trying to make some safe calculations. Already, I was at a loss. Why? Because as soon as my investment matures, it will automatically liquidate and drop in to this very account that was already in debit. The system would then deduct that negative balance from any amount which enters into the account. That thought scared me on a daily basis. I had a little hope because a pressure group had formed amongst the several of us who were laid off to fight for justice. Clamouring to have those debits reversed and asking the bank to pay us severance entitlement as most other banks did. all that demand never materialised and then, one day, my investment matured, liquidated and dropped into my negative balance account. I saw my new balance and I broke down in tears. I was in the middle of my afternoon prayers that day so I believe that I cried before God and oh, He heard me. I told Him that this was cheating and I really cried. A few days later, I tried to use the credit card and I realised my outstanding balance was deducted from my account as well , why didn’t I transfer all the remaining money out? At least, it would have been too late for that credit card balance to be deducted. When I got home, I didn’t cry like I did at the first credit alert that now helped me see my true balance, this time, I slot in a Mike Abdul CD- ‘Testimony time’ and I took my dance to the sitting room. I didn’t care what the 7 other flats on the block would say, I raised the volume to the very highest and I danced throughout the entire CD. I was an outright loser but I still danced.
Bear in mind that I was still very new in Lagos. As at that time, I had been to Oshodi only once since my relocation. I did not know where the offices were. It was not like Abuja where I had both contacts and knowledge of where to find the corporate offices. The fear I experienced was HUGE especially because I remembered that all my previous jobs were gotten after I gave someone my CV or because I dropped my CV in a certain place. The only option I had was to sit at home and scout the internet for jobs. I received quite a few responses from several organizations but they either said that I was too qualified or not qualified. I knew nobody and I knew nowhere.
Until one day, I was at home and a guy called me. I had known him from my last office. He was not staff but a service provider. He liked to stop by at my seat then to say hello. That day, he said he called me because he had not seen me for a long time on my seat and he has called because the thoughts of me filled his mind while he was in traffic on his way to work that morning. I narrated my story to him and he said I should check a certain office in the estate where I lived because he heard they were recruiting and I should take my Resume there, which I did. I was called for an interview and a few weeks later I was called to pick up employment letter. I got the job. Wow, the details of my job, and the journey so far on my job is better shared later.
For now, let me tell you what I think God was doing all the while. God was teaching me the ‘the right response to crisis’. I have learnt to literally dance when things look like they are going or have gone south and sour. God was showing me how to use the weapons of my testimonies in overcoming everything that wages a war against me. I remember one afternoon, while I was praying in my miserable and lonely state, God put my mind in a retrospective mode. I remembered one by one, some hopeless situations in my life and how God miraculously helped me. That day, I ended up laughing out of the place of prayer because I received a strong confidence that that same God is still at work again. Yes, He did not fail. Only Him could make that guy call me. Only Him could give me a good job in an office located in the same estate where I live. I see people today, who imitate my blessing and I can only stand in owe of my great God. God was teaching me to depend on Him and be led by Him. Out of frustration and comparing myself to my flatmates who woke up early to go to work, one day, I also woke up early and wore suit as if I was going to work. I had received an invite for an interview but I knew deep down that they were scammers and the Holy Spirit whispered gently that I should stay indoors. But I refused that clear instruction. I told God that I didn’t want to appear lazy, that even I also wanted to leave the house to go out early in the morning again. So alas, the invite was a scam, a waste of my time, energy and my resources.
Today, you can conveniently run a credit check on me and you will find no indebtedness in me. God saw to it that I do not owe my former employer. Though I lost almost all my savings when my investment matured, I am glad their money went back to them that way. As for those who were fired just like me, some refused to pay the bank the upfront debit balance, but suspect that they are even more indebted to the bank than when they were sacked because the monthly debit interest continues to be charged on those accounts. But I have not only paid them off, I have closed the account because i have a substitute account which i currently use in the same bank.
Today, I am no more timid. I spent exactly 4 months in the house, away from friends and loved ones. The mysteries which I saw in those few months, I will share with you some day. But one thing is clear and evident, I am no longer a timid, shy, easily-intimidated person.
Back then, many felt a lot of resentment towards the organization for that unlawful treatment. They said so many nasty things which irritated me. At a point, I opted out of the team fighting for the reversal of those debits. I realised that there was no need abusing the employer who regularly paid your salary for years without fail. God had used the organization to be a blessing to me and vice versa and I refused every resentment against them. I insisted on forgiveness and I had relief.Today, I felt like using all the ‘000s of languages in this world to say ‘thank you’ not to God per say, but to whoever submitted my name to be fired in the bank. That person yielded to the wish and the will of God. if they thought that they had done evil to me, god has turned it around for good. It has been 2 years and it had turned good-er and good-er.